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Judy Garland - Judy Garland Speaks (1969)

Track listing:
CD1
  1. Obvious Nazi Machine 6:12
  2. Plane Crash 5:14
  3. Outraged (Long Rant) 35:24
CD2
  1. Don't Make A Joke Of Me Anymore 5:55
  2. In Love With People 2:27
  3. Get The Hell Out Of My Life! 6:53
  4. Humor, Tears, Fun, Emotion & Love 1:33
  5. And Now, Ladies & Gentlemen 1:01
  6. All I Want Is Money 9:00
  7. They Must Pay 8:35
  8. How Do You Feel? 4:36
  9. Since I Lost My Man 3:44
  10. Absolutely Outrageous 1:29

Notes

These are spoken-word tapes Judy Garland made near the end of her life when she was planning her autobiography.

“I’m goddamned mad, I’m an angry lady! I’ve been insulted! Slandered! Humiliated! I wanted to believe, and I tried my damndest to believe in that rainbow that I tried to get over —and I couldn’t! So what! Lots of people can’t. I hate anybody’s guts who used me, because I wanted to be a nice girl.”

"I'm an angry lady: I'm a lady who is angry. I've been insulted, slandered, humiliated -- but still America's Sweetheart.' Now I'm rather intelligent, I think, and I'm emotional -- yeah -- I'm a woman; I'm emotional... I've sung, I've entertained, I've pleased your children, I've pleased your wives, I've pleased you -- you sons a bitches! Now you better write it. You better pay for it, or don't listen and get the hell out of my life!"

From http://www.fiveoclockbot.com/blog/archives/000908.php (some sound clips there too):

Toward the end of her life, Judy Garland sat down with a bottle of gin and a tape recorder and began preparing for an autobiography that she would never write. The aftermath of these home recordings is perhaps the greatest audio archive of the soul of the tormented star.

Instead of outlining the memories and chapters of her life that would translate into chapters of her book, a barely lucid Judy Garland slurs into the microphone, railing against her ex husband Sid Luft and the callous public that demanded so much of her but gave so little back.

The best clip is "Get the Hell Out of My Life" is by far the best clip. Here the gin has lit a fire in her belly and she rants about the cruelties of the public, which treated her like a wind up toy!

"I've laughed at myself when I should have cried...and I've cried...because I had every reason--I'm goddamn mad!"..."I'm the one whose had to live with me"..."I am the result of an audience!"..."I'm a good cook. I am a good mother. I do believe in going to church. I love music."...All my forty four goddamn marvelous, failing, successful and hopelessly tragic and starlit years..."


From http://www.counterpoint-music.com/specialties/judy.html (which sells this unauthorized set):

Ultra-rare home voice tapes which were recorded as notes for her never written autobiography.
This "interim" volume in the infamous Celebrities series consists entirely of ultra-rare home voice tapes of "America's Sweetheart" ranting and raving near the end of her troubled life. Super-agent Irving "Swifty" Lazar gave her a tape recorder and told her to dictate the autobiography which she never lived to write. At this phase of her career Judy has just been ripped off for the television show she never wanted to do, and plagued with ex-husband Sid Luft's gambling debts and his trying to get custody of her children -- and boy, is she PISSED! The first disc is fairly straightforward, extremely insightful autobiography -- which sets the stage for the spewing of bile on the second disc. Judy yells, Judy nods out from pills -- you get it all here on these never-heard tapes, which were the subject of a recent A&E special.